Thursday, October 13, 2005

Thoughts

Why do I always get the pre-test jitters? Actually, calling them jitters is a huge understatement. Here I am, studying my heart out, worried to death about a grade that won't even matter in a year. I can't sleep. What else is there to do other than to stay up and study (and take a break to blog a bit)?
Tomorrow (test day) will be so much worse than the anxiety I feel tonight. It will start at 7:00 am with atleast 3 trips to the bathroom, followed by not being able to eat, followed by looking over my 50 pages of notes one last time, followed by a discombobulated drive to the school. After the test, my classmates will all gather outside and try to remember each and every question in order to compare answers. I will be famished from not having anything in my stomach. Anxiety ends when I see my grade. Could be later that day, could be in a week. Who knows?
Yes, it's all in my head, but I've made A's so far in nursing school except for on 2 tests and have gained much needed knowledge, so is this stress and IBS all worth it? Hmmm...
I must've gained 5 lbs this past summer because my pants felt tighter. I didn't mind though, because I knew that once I started back up to school, I would lose that poundage plus maybe more. Yep, I was right- the pants fit great again. My strive for perfection in nursing school continues and so does my studying....
Why am I like this?!?

5 comments:

JaredB said...

That's a pretty big accomplishment that you should be proud of (the all A's).

I think it's just a balancing act of being prepared vs. stressing yourself out. There's probably a point at which you've put in so much time studying that you are getting diminishing returns - ie: if you're really wearing yourself out, those hours you spend after that point probably aren't very effective ones anyway, so better to spend them resting so you can study better the next day.

My advice would be to evaluate what amount of effort it will really take you to still make A's (or even B's), and if it's less than what you're putting in, then give yourself a bit of a break so you don't burn yourself out, but if you don't feel like that's happening then I guess keep going for the perfection!

Nate said...

I would advise you to just slack off and see what happens. Often times you don't have to be perfect to get the grades you want, just better than your classmates.

Randy said...

Like hell you are going to relax. There is now way you are going to give me anything less than almost-perfect. I will not have my wife embarrass me in front of the world. You will study and you will like it. Actually I don't even care if you like it, you will do it anyway. And if you don't get As on your test then it's going to be a 16 hour Tom Cruise marathon for you, you litter slacker. People don't want slackers sticking them with drug filled needles. They want workaholics. You will stress and learn to live with it.

I love you.

The One and Only Bugg said...

I got my A. It was a great day.

Now Randy won't beat me.

jacquie said...

Of course you did. And if you had gotten a B? It would have been a great day! You will be a great nurse, or what ever you do, because you are an awesome person, with our without the A's.